Despite nearly six years of unwavering sobriety, her distrust manifests in public accusations and whispered suspicions, turning moments of vulnerability into battlegrounds of judgment. His strength is met with suspicion, his healing overshadowed by fear, as the scars of addiction ripple through family ties, threatening to unravel the fragile peace he’s fought so hard to achieve.
I’m an ex heroin addict. The why and how isn’t important, but I got hooked at 15, tried to get clean at 17 but relapsed hard, finally got my act together and got off it for good at 21.
I’m 26 now and completely clean. I don’t even drink, except for on special occasions where I’ll have two or three drinks at most.
Now, my older brother and his wife have been together since shortly before I had my bad relapse, and she’s convinced that I’m just a ticking time bomb waiting to relapse again. The first year or so, I understood her concerns and she wasn’t the only person who had them.
However, it’s been almost six years since I was anywhere near the stuff and she still won’t have that I’m gonna stay clean.
She’s very vocal about these concerns, too. If I get sick, she tells our entire family that she thinks I’ve relapsed again and I’m having withdrawals. She made a huge scene on Christmas day two years ago because I had a cold and was a bit sniffly and she decided that I must have been doing a ton of coke.
If anything goes missing from any of the family’s houses, she accuses me of having stolen it for drug money. I mostly just grin and bear it so as not to make waves, but recently she took it a step too far.
I went away recently with some friends. On the first day of my trip, I dropped and broke my phone. Because she and my brother were unable to get ahold of me for a few days, she became convinced I had gone on a massive dope bender, and began telling my family and friends that she knew this to be the case.
When I got home, I found myself being given an intervention and told how disappointed people were. It was kinda the straw that broke the camel’s back, and I sort of flipped at my sister in law.
I yelled at her, asking why the fuck she doesn’t trust me and why she’s so hellbent on undermining my success and believing that I’m incapable of staying clean. She got upset and told me she was only concerned for my wellbeing, but I said imo that’s bullshit; at this point it’s absolutely about her not having faith in me and if she feels that way she should stay the fuck out of my business.
At that point she started crying and she and my brother left. I’m being told left and right that I’m an asshole and ungrateful because she’s only looking out for me and I need to apologise, but I’m still upset that she evidently believes I’m incapable of doing this.
AITA?
Conclusion
The original poster (OP) is struggling because, despite achieving nearly six years of sobriety from heroin, his sister-in-law consistently distrusts him, leading to public accusations and creating intense family tension. The OP feels his long-term commitment to staying clean is being undermined by her refusal to accept his recovery, culminating in an explosive confrontation after she falsely accused him of relapsing during a phone outage.
Is the OP justified in reacting angrily to his sister-in-law’s continuous, damaging lack of faith in his sustained recovery, or is he being ungrateful for what might be interpreted as persistent, albeit poorly executed, concern for his well-being? Where should the line be drawn between necessary family support and harmful, persistent accusation?
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Listen, addiction is a really difficult subject. It effects the family as well. And technically once an addict always an addict.
With that being said: congratulations!! Being straight that long is amazing. I’ve heard day 1 is just as hard as day 1000 but it sounds like you’re not getting complacent, which is super important. “I can handle one hit” always turns into a bender.
I can see your family being concerned but the fact that it’s her go to, that you’re automatically thought to be at fault when anything is “missing” or that you can’t go a few days without talking to people without them worried is probably really hard since you’re an adult and they’re treating you like a child.
I feel like she’ll never be satistifed. You could do drug tests every 3 months and she’d ask for monthly. Hell, you could do them monthly and she’d say you must have bought clean urine.
There’s, unfortunately, no really good solution here. Make it clear that you don’t ever want to go back to that behaviors and that you understand where she’s coming from but that she needs to respect that if something happens and you relapse you’ll let them know (because things happen) but that you’re really happy with your life right now and constantly being reminded of your past issues and it sort of being expected that it’ll happen again is really making it hard to live your life the way you need to.
It might also make her feel good. The smaller you are, the bigger she is. Some people are like that. One of my family members will NEVER accept my success later in life, because it changes our dynamic. She is supposed to be the good one and I am supposed to be the screw up. Anything else forces her to reflect on her own lack of success lately, and that is a mental hurdle she cannot take.
I would point out that dynamic to the people around you, because at this point it is not concern, it is wanting you to fail. If she would constantly point out to an obese person that the diet wasn’t going to work, the person would just be fat again, can’t be trusted around pie and so on, most reasonable people would find that cruel, rude and counterproductive. In your case it is even more so, so why is everyone letting her get away with it?
Stay strong, stay your own fine self, and don’t let her drag you down because she is at such a low level herself.
That said 6 years off heroin is amazing and your SIL is TA for constantly thinking the worst of you.
My aunt was a heroin addict, she’s been clean for a little less time than you, 5 years, and the first year or two I admit I was just waiting for her to relapse but she hasn’t and actually works at the rehab centre that helped her now. I would never assume she’d relapsed now, whether she had the sniffles or wasn’t contactable for a few days, it’s not an impossibility but it wouldn’t be my first thought.
Your SIL should acknowledge what you’ve achieved instead of waiting and expecting you to fail
Your SIL is an asshole and your brother is a MASSIVE asshole for letting this continue. I get that she’s the one saying all the stuff but why is everyone else around you guys allowing this to continue. Their silence makes them accomplices to her accusations. How has no one told her to quit it yet? Why does it have to come down to you yelling at her?
I’d be pissed off, I feel like anyone telling me that I was TA for yelling at her, really doesn’t have my back in this situation, especially after 6 years. At least you know where you stand with your SIL, but where do you stand with everyone else or do they just stand with her?
Okay, so a whole *group*, large enough for an intervention, pulled together, all believing that you went off the wagon, and you blame *her*?
This wasn’t about her alone. There is a general lack of faith in you. Maybe she’s the worst, but she couldn’t convince all those others to *stage an intervention* if they didn’t have their own doubts. ESH. You’re blaming her for all of their reactions.
Also I don’t think she doesn’t trust you; I think she likes to be the center of attention and wants you to fail so she can say I told you so
Your SIL needs to reevaluate her feelings towards you, and keep her trap shut. There’s absolutely no reason to try to undermine you and put your own family against you.
I’m so proud of you for getting and staying clean, I know it’s hard on a person to stay in recovery. Keep doing you and be healthy and maybe she will finally see straight and get over herself.
Congratulations on making it this far. You’re kicking ass.
There is a difference between
Being concerned: Checking in on you here or there, voicing support for you, respecting your boundaries, and whatnot
Being an asshole: accusing you, assuming the worst, pulling the family together for an intervention whenever she has Z E R O evidence,
Addicts need support for success. All she’s doing is tearing you down at every opportunity.
Organizing an intervention because you were out of contact while on a trip with friends? Telling people you relapse every time you get sick? Sounds like she might have some issues going on that she doesn’t want a light pointed on.
Edit: maybe it’ll be easier to ignore her BS in the future if you picture her as Russel Crowe singing