Life often throws us curveballs, and at the age of seventeen, I, Violet, was caught off guard by one of these unanticipated turns. I was going through some old boxes in the attic on what seemed to be an average afternoon when everything started.
An envelope that had become yellow with age touched my fingers. It was sealed, with an unwavering pledge. When I noticed my name written across it in my dad’s recognizable handwriting, my heart skipped a beat. Dad had died 10 years ago, leaving a mess of unspoken words and unanswered emotions in his wake. However, a fragment of him was present, extending from the past.
The letter therein was a surprise as well as a comfort to my hurting heart. Dad said that he had inherited a sizable sum of money from his parents and uncles, one of whom was a highly successful businessman.
Before dad was diagnosed with cancer, he established a trust fund for me with the intention of using it to pay for all of his medical expenses and then more. His words were so full of love and optimism when he talked about wanting to ensure my future in his letter; they brought tears to my eyes.
However, the message soon adopted a tone of serious counsel. Dad begged me to use the money carefully, for my schooling and to buy a house, something solid and reliable that would not be taken away by some cruel turn of events. I sensed his presence and direction as he stated his desire for me to have a life filled with experiences that he was never able to experience.
But my revelation wasn’t kept a secret for very long. I was reading the letter again, tears running down my cheeks when Mom came in. Her curiosity overcame her. Before long, she held the letter in her hands and read it word for word, her amazement and, dare I say it, greed increasing.
She returned the letter to me and said, in a whisper, “I had no idea.” But she had a different expression in her eyes, and a new strategy was beginning to take shape.
Mom insisted on going to the lawyer’s appointment with me the very following day, saying it was in my best interest. However, I was aware of this. That’s when reality struck me—in the cold, clinical office of family lawyer Mr. Hargrove. It was actual money, and it was a good deal of it.
During supper that night, Mom was bursting with enthusiasm. My stepdad Joel was informed by her about the money, and all of a sudden it became a very delicate topic. Mom explained in detail how their financial problems may be resolved by the bequest. Joel, a guy full of potential, listened carefully, his eyes bright with possibilities.
He remarked warily, “But it’s Violet’s,” following Mom’s explanation of her intended purpose for the funds.
Mom said, “Violet will understand,” with a determination that would not waver. “It is for the household.” Don’t you think that she wants to support her siblings, honey?
My mother took over as my financial manager since I wouldn’t provide the money to them as they requested. I wasn’t an adult yet. They said the money was more than enough for all of us and wanted me to split it amongst them, myself, and my step-siblings. Justifying it as a familial obligation, my mom had previously taken out $20,000 for kitchen renovations and outfits for my step-siblings.
Their discussion on what to do with the remainder devolved into a scheme that encompassed ignoring my preferences. I felt crushed by the weight of their expectations and deeds. The money that was supposed to be my lifeline and my link to a father I hardly remembered was being wasted on petty things and wish lists.
When I learned, I was incensed, but my mother insisted that I have to share. I made the decision to give my mom and her husband a valuable lesson since I couldn’t stand it any longer. So, driven by a mixture of grief, rage, and a fervent need for justice, I wrote to Lydia, my paternal grandmother, because I knew she would get it.
I trembled with emotion when I said, “Gran, I need to talk to you,” on the phone.
The next day, I discovered myself at her doorway, carrying a mixture of conflicting feelings. Grandma was a ray of sunshine, with her perceptive eyes and kind embrace. We sat down in her living room, surrounded by pictures of happier times, and I opened up to her about everything. I told her about my mom’s behavior, the revelation of the bequest, and my deep-seated dread of losing the last physical link I had with my dad.
With a mix of resolution and anguish on her face, Grandma Lydia listened in quiet. After I was done, she grabbed my hands and said, “Violet, we’ll make this right.” It would have pleased your father if we had.
As promised, Grandma Lydia didn’t waste any time. Sensibly, Mom filed for divorce a few days later, wanting to safeguard my fortune. The ensuing legal dispute was harsh and quickly resolved.
My parents and Joel had overreached themselves by using my trust fund as their personal emergency fund, which was made brutally evident in court. The judge’s decision was clear-cut: they had to give back every penny they had stolen.
The consequences were felt right away. With words as sharp as razors, my mother let out a rage unlike anything other. She yelled, “How could you do this to your own family?” with a sense of betrayal that matched mine.
I was the bad guy, the unappreciative daughter who had put money above family, as far as she was concerned. I was ordered to leave that very night and seek safety with the grandma who had the audacity to support me.
I moved in with Grandma Lydia and took comfort in her constant support and the knowledge that my father always wanted the best for me. But even as I made an effort to embrace this new phase of my life, I couldn’t help but wonder: Was it worth it?
I’m sitting in my grandmother’s kitchen right now, enjoying the smell of freshly brewed coffee and the early light, and I can’t help but wonder whether I made the right decision. Yes, the trust fund was legally mine, my father’s parting present, given with the intention of securing my future. But in getting it, I’d alienated my mother—the person who had reared me—despite all of her imperfections.
We are separated by an unbearable gulf that has been deepened by legal disputes and hurtful remarks that cannot be undone. My siblings, who were only spectators in a conflict they did not initiate, are missed. And now Joel, with his calm strength and practical knowledge, is simply another victim of my pursuit of justice.
Readers, I find myself coming to you. What do you think? Was it OK of me to use such drastic measures to discipline my stepfather and mother? Was the expense of losing my family in the struggle for my fortune worth it? may I have pursued an other course of action that may have resulted in a distinct kind of resolution?
Ultimately, I find myself struggling with the intricacies of family, allegiance, and the weighty responsibility of legacy, leaving me with more questions than answers. But one thing is certain: the conflicts we wage inside of our hearts are sometimes the hardest ones.